[voice] And Stops

What does it mean to be special, anyway? I thought I knew. I thought in my twisted-up mind, I knew what I needed, but it had just been spiral after spiral, and so many people paid for that initial mistake of mine.

It's a value. It's a value someone places on you for being you. And you care about it, because you care about them.

And even if it's just one person, just one, if it's the right one, then it still makes a difference.

I think I finally get it now. And I am so sorry. I know that doesn't fix it, or make it better, or change the terrible things I've done, or even convince you.

[pause]

I'm also leaving. I'll be gone. So there's that.