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I was hoping she'd be back when I returned, but apparently I wasn't even gone five minutes this time. It isn't as if it matters much anymore. I had my little tantrum in the Underground, kept from destroying any more of my books, but it seems as if this City just wants to keep taking from me. Not allowed Faith to play with here, not allowed my anchor from home- I had the box in my hands of my mother's things. I'm not allowed to recenter myself. That's not what this place is about.

But it's not all bad. I was getting tired of wearing Agent Taub's skin. Maybe if I stay in my own for awhile, I won't get so stuck. I can find who I am again- although it won't be in that shop. That's my old adoptive father's skin, really, and not even he wanted it. I'll keep it up, though. I have to. It's what keeps me from having to hide. I'm selfish that way, I've really gotten to enjoy the small comforts after living another man's life for so long. I think I'll keep mine for awhile longer here.

So, Dad- what you said, about hunting only the weak prey? Taking the easy killings? Do you think I'll stop here, because they're not so easy all of a sudden? Let's see if our nature wins out on this one, shall we? Maybe see if I raise any more alarms in the process?
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I know someone asked recently, but I didn't see anyone stepping up. Are there any psychiatrists in this City? Psychologists? I could really use some help. I imagine someone could do quite well with that profession here in the City, now that I think about it.

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[holymadonna.livejournal.com]

There used to be one, but he left long ago. Doctor Hannibal Lecter. A young man who opened a psychiatrist in my first months in the City.

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[ladyofwinter.livejournal.com]

What would you give for such a thing?

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Hannibal Lecter. Too bad, it would've been fitting. He's probably the only one who would've agreed to take me on, too.

I'll keep looking. Thanks, Lilith.

[akaladybasene.livejournal.com]

There are those of us who used to do such things. I know that.

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

I was thinking money, but I'm sure it could be negotiated.

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Really? Know anyone still in operation?

[ladyofwinter.livejournal.com]

Negotiations may be it.

[akaladybasene.livejournal.com]

I know someone who could be persuaded.

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

What do you mean? Who's offering, here?

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Can I ask who?

[ladyofwinter.livejournal.com]

Mortal minds are fragile things. Any number of people could offer given a chance.

[akaladybasene.livejournal.com]

I have experience in that area.

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

They are, easily broken. Hopefully someone will take me up on it.

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Oh, that's good to hear. What sort of experience, if I might ask? Hopefully not the same as Dr. Lecter's.

[i-know-stuff.livejournal.com]

Do you really think they help?

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

I think it'd be worth a try. I can't get too much more messed up than I already am.

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[justdoingmyjob.livejournal.com]

Help with what?

[ladyofwinter.livejournal.com]

You do not wish yours to break then.

[i-know-stuff.livejournal.com]

Anything is worth a try. I'm sorry to hear you're bad off.

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[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Hi, Peter.

Help with everything. It feels like things are breaking apart, but- I suppose it's more like they were always crumbling. Maybe it takes something small to realize it.

[akaladybasene.livejournal.com]

I once cured diseases of the mind.

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

I hadn't tried asking before. And thanks- but I've been this way for a long while, apparently. I'm finally starting to realize it's a problem.

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Oh, it's already there. Maybe mended. If that's possible.