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I was hoping she'd be back when I returned, but apparently I wasn't even gone five minutes this time. It isn't as if it matters much anymore. I had my little tantrum in the Underground, kept from destroying any more of my books, but it seems as if this City just wants to keep taking from me. Not allowed Faith to play with here, not allowed my anchor from home- I had the box in my hands of my mother's things. I'm not allowed to recenter myself. That's not what this place is about.
But it's not all bad. I was getting tired of wearing Agent Taub's skin. Maybe if I stay in my own for awhile, I won't get so stuck. I can find who I am again- although it won't be in that shop. That's my old adoptive father's skin, really, and not even he wanted it. I'll keep it up, though. I have to. It's what keeps me from having to hide. I'm selfish that way, I've really gotten to enjoy the small comforts after living another man's life for so long. I think I'll keep mine for awhile longer here.
So, Dad- what you said, about hunting only the weak prey? Taking the easy killings? Do you think I'll stop here, because they're not so easy all of a sudden? Let's see if our nature wins out on this one, shall we? Maybe see if I raise any more alarms in the process?
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I know someone asked recently, but I didn't see anyone stepping up. Are there any psychiatrists in this City? Psychologists? I could really use some help. I imagine someone could do quite well with that profession here in the City, now that I think about it.
I was hoping she'd be back when I returned, but apparently I wasn't even gone five minutes this time. It isn't as if it matters much anymore. I had my little tantrum in the Underground, kept from destroying any more of my books, but it seems as if this City just wants to keep taking from me. Not allowed Faith to play with here, not allowed my anchor from home- I had the box in my hands of my mother's things. I'm not allowed to recenter myself. That's not what this place is about.
But it's not all bad. I was getting tired of wearing Agent Taub's skin. Maybe if I stay in my own for awhile, I won't get so stuck. I can find who I am again- although it won't be in that shop. That's my old adoptive father's skin, really, and not even he wanted it. I'll keep it up, though. I have to. It's what keeps me from having to hide. I'm selfish that way, I've really gotten to enjoy the small comforts after living another man's life for so long. I think I'll keep mine for awhile longer here.
So, Dad- what you said, about hunting only the weak prey? Taking the easy killings? Do you think I'll stop here, because they're not so easy all of a sudden? Let's see if our nature wins out on this one, shall we? Maybe see if I raise any more alarms in the process?
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I know someone asked recently, but I didn't see anyone stepping up. Are there any psychiatrists in this City? Psychologists? I could really use some help. I imagine someone could do quite well with that profession here in the City, now that I think about it.
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Date: 2009-06-17 01:51 am (UTC)I'll keep looking. Thanks, Lilith.
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Date: 2009-06-17 02:30 am (UTC)Help with everything. It feels like things are breaking apart, but- I suppose it's more like they were always crumbling. Maybe it takes something small to realize it.
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Date: 2009-06-17 03:12 am (UTC)This isn't any different than anything else you've said before.no subject
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Date: 2009-06-17 04:33 am (UTC)1/2 - thiiiinking...
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From:ffft he is disappointed by your apparent desire to change >D
Date: 2009-06-17 02:45 pm (UTC)Aw, don't worry, Brian. It's all an act- well, mostly.
Date: 2009-06-17 02:55 pm (UTC)weeelll it probably wouldn't help anyway?
From:Lecter would've had the best chance, if that answers your question. XD
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