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[makes_you_tick]

Thank you to everyone who calmed me down yesterday. I apologize for my outburst, and I'm relieved to note that I didn't end up hurting anyone. Of course I had to reawaken on a curse day.

I'm back, for those few who might have wanted my assistance at the shop. And Doctor Sahl? I think I'll take you up on that offer to look at the hospital equipment today, if it's still open. Thank you for your kindness yesterday.

[Private to Mohinder]

No story today, sadly. I'm still reeling from the past few days. Thank you for keeping me relatively sane from making any rash moves. I'm sorry I missed your birthday, but- well, I imagine my non-existence was present enough.

[Private (but viewable to Angela)]
I feel wrong. I've never felt like there was anything wrong with me before, but now I feel broken and wrong. Like I'm missing a battery, or a heart. Maybe that's just how it feels when it lies in your chest and doesn't beat. It was stupid of me to let Peter do that- I knew my death would be an option. I just didn't know I'd feel like this if it happened.

The ghost of a heartbeat ticks in time with the City clock. It's all I have, so my mind clings to it. I wonder if there's any way to connect to it more. I wish I could hear it like I used to

I hope this will be like a fallen tooth, something I can't help but run my tongue over and over again, but eventually fading to normality. From what Eden described to me, that's likely. I'll get used to it.

Comments

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

...well?

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Not exactly what I was trying for either, I have to admit.

Sympathy? Somehow I doubt that applies in this situation.

[dreamsofnoah]

Better now?

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Much. I only needed a decent hour's rest.

How are you, Road?

[sent-back.livejournal.com]

Reawaken?

[dreamsofnoah]

Good~ ♥

I'm okay! But Allen left, I'm afraid.

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

I was dead. I'm not really sure what the appropriate term for coming back is here...

[sent-back.livejournal.com]

So you can't go home.

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Allen? I'm sorry, I'm not familiar. Who's that, a friend of yours?

[dreamsofnoah]

Oops, I forgot I didn't tell you his name. The one I was going to bring to see you.

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Not anymore, no.

[sent-back.livejournal.com]

Does that bother you?

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Ah, I see. That's too bad, I would have liked to learn more about him.

[dreamsofnoah]

I can tell you more about him myself~. I know all about him ♥

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Yes, it does. But it might be for the best.

[sent-back.livejournal.com]

Why?

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

I'm less of a threat that way. Besides, the people I wanted to protect are here, anyway.

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Really? Well, then, I suppose it's less of a loss.

[dreamsofnoah]

It is for me! I miss him!

[sent-back.livejournal.com]

And the things you wanted to protect them from?

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make light of the situation. Hey, how about you come by my shop, we can have some tea, and you can tell me about him? It might make you feel a little better.

People leave and come back all the time- hopefully, you'll see him again soon.

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

They don't seem to exist here.

[dreamsofnoah]

Hmm. Okay! I like talking about Allen. When do you want me to be there?

Maybe~. He'd come back here if he could, to look after his friends, I know that much. I'll see him again at home, anyway, but I still didn't want him to leave.

private;

[orderonto]

Why are you being so congenial toward me?

I very nearly killed you. You know that if chance ever played into my hands that I would try again.

So why?

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[hathborne.livejournal.com]

He's gone.

Oh, he's gone. Peter's gone.

I don't-- don't let them near me. Any of them.