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[makes_you_tick]

Thank you to everyone who calmed me down yesterday. I apologize for my outburst, and I'm relieved to note that I didn't end up hurting anyone. Of course I had to reawaken on a curse day.

I'm back, for those few who might have wanted my assistance at the shop. And Doctor Sahl? I think I'll take you up on that offer to look at the hospital equipment today, if it's still open. Thank you for your kindness yesterday.

[Private to Mohinder]

No story today, sadly. I'm still reeling from the past few days. Thank you for keeping me relatively sane from making any rash moves. I'm sorry I missed your birthday, but- well, I imagine my non-existence was present enough.

[Private (but viewable to Angela)]
I feel wrong. I've never felt like there was anything wrong with me before, but now I feel broken and wrong. Like I'm missing a battery, or a heart. Maybe that's just how it feels when it lies in your chest and doesn't beat. It was stupid of me to let Peter do that- I knew my death would be an option. I just didn't know I'd feel like this if it happened.

The ghost of a heartbeat ticks in time with the City clock. It's all I have, so my mind clings to it. I wonder if there's any way to connect to it more. I wish I could hear it like I used to

I hope this will be like a fallen tooth, something I can't help but run my tongue over and over again, but eventually fading to normality. From what Eden described to me, that's likely. I'll get used to it.

Comments

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

...well?

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Not exactly what I was trying for either, I have to admit.

Sympathy? Somehow I doubt that applies in this situation.

[dreamsofnoah]

Better now?

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Much. I only needed a decent hour's rest.

How are you, Road?

[dreamsofnoah]

Good~ ♥

I'm okay! But Allen left, I'm afraid.

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Allen? I'm sorry, I'm not familiar. Who's that, a friend of yours?

[sent-back.livejournal.com]

Reawaken?

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

I was dead. I'm not really sure what the appropriate term for coming back is here...

[sent-back.livejournal.com]

So you can't go home.

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Not anymore, no.

private;

[orderonto]

Why are you being so congenial toward me?

I very nearly killed you. You know that if chance ever played into my hands that I would try again.

So why?

private;

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Being homicidal tends to make people lonely, Mohinder. You're the closest thing I have to a friend, and- let's be honest, I've never had many friends.

You tried to kill me, yes, but it was a reaction to what what I'd done. If I hadn't killed your father, you wouldn't have sought revenge. If I hadn't tricked you, who knows how you'd regard me.

I doubt you'd try again here, unless I was actively threatening someone. There'd be no point- I'm already dead. However, yes, outside of this place, you would've. And considering everything I'd done to you, I wouldn't fault you for that.

You're taking the time to listen to me- even though you should, by all rights, be telling me to go to hell. I appreciate that, regardless of your reasons.

private;

[hathborne.livejournal.com]

He's gone.

Oh, he's gone. Peter's gone.

I don't-- don't let them near me. Any of them.

private;

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

And now I can't keep him safe.

I'm sorry, Mother. My first real test, and I've failed miserably.

I won't let them near. Is there anything else I can do for you?

private || unhackable

[comfortablygray.livejournal.com]

This is completely insane.

private || unhackable

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Which 'this' are you referring to?

private || unhackable

[comfortablygray.livejournal.com]

You making more sense than Peter.

Re: private || unhackable

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Odd, isn't it?

Is there something you wanted to talk to me about, Noah?

[holymadonna.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Gabriel. I pray you are feeling much better after that horrible curse.

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Much better. I owe you a big part of that.

[holymadonna.livejournal.com]

Ah, no, the credit goes solely to you to remain strong against your shadow.

[makes-you-tick.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Dr. Sahl. I'm starting to redefine that word, I think.