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makes_you_tickI didn't want to hurt any of them, you know. It wasn't my choice, I just couldn't do anything to stop it. I could just see how to take the ability and I had to- I had to. And even when I tried to stop it, other people came between me and my intentions. Suresh, he didn't understand, and he was so excited, he practically forced me to continue. He told me he didn't care how it happened, he was just glad it did.
I fought all that, the temptation and the encouragement, and I was going to stop. And then Elle Bishop showed up in my life- just appeared like a little blonde angel, she saved the day and convinced me I was fine the way I was, and then she betrayed me. Brought me someone, and even I could see then that she meant for me to kill him. I just couldn't fathom why, or how she even knew that I had killed Mr. Davis.
It wasn't my choice- there was nothing I could do to stop it. Between my parents, the scientist, the agent, and the undeniable urge, I never had a chance. I felt like I was outside of it, watching it all happen.
It wasn't my fault...
I fought all that, the temptation and the encouragement, and I was going to stop. And then Elle Bishop showed up in my life- just appeared like a little blonde angel, she saved the day and convinced me I was fine the way I was, and then she betrayed me. Brought me someone, and even I could see then that she meant for me to kill him. I just couldn't fathom why, or how she even knew that I had killed Mr. Davis.
It wasn't my choice- there was nothing I could do to stop it. Between my parents, the scientist, the agent, and the undeniable urge, I never had a chance. I felt like I was outside of it, watching it all happen.
It wasn't my fault...
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Date: 2008-11-23 04:08 am (UTC)Do you want me to say I'm sorry?no subject
Date: 2008-11-23 04:08 am (UTC)Even if it was wrong...you're still the one who...3/3
Date: 2008-11-23 04:09 am (UTC)voice?
Date: 2008-11-23 04:13 am (UTC)[muffled thumps, annoyed sigh]
voice; [ those before were voice too sob sorry i fail at subject tagging ]
Date: 2008-11-23 04:17 am (UTC)ahaha, and I am the edit king, so no worries. voice! :3
Date: 2008-11-23 04:21 am (UTC)<3333 [feels a bit less bad then!!!]
Date: 2008-11-23 04:22 am (UTC)<3! voice, private;
Date: 2008-11-23 04:32 am (UTC)voice; private; 1/2
Date: 2008-11-23 04:38 am (UTC)voice, private; 2/2
Date: 2008-11-23 04:39 am (UTC)No.
Even if I wasn't...I couldn't...and you...voice, private;
Date: 2008-11-23 04:46 am (UTC)So what was it, then? Bored with your assignments? Thought playing around with the unstable nerd would be fun?
voice; [she forgot to private/ or doesn't care...Gabriel can imagine as to which...]
Date: 2008-11-23 04:53 am (UTC)But I knew it was wrong, and I did it anyway.
I won't say I'm sorry. Not after you killed him.
Is this my fault?
[voice]
Date: 2008-11-23 04:59 am (UTC)[voice]
Date: 2008-11-23 05:00 am (UTC)Yeah.
Just business as usual.
[voice, private]
Date: 2008-11-23 05:16 am (UTC)Elle, are you having some sort of problem with your ability?
[voice]
Date: 2008-11-23 05:20 am (UTC)[voice]
Date: 2008-11-23 05:33 am (UTC)[voice]
Date: 2008-11-23 05:35 am (UTC)I don't want your help. You killed him.
[voice]
Date: 2008-11-23 05:52 am (UTC)Still- it doesn't sound like it's been getting any better. And I could help.
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Date: 2008-11-23 05:55 am (UTC)[voice] 2/2
Date: 2008-11-23 05:55 am (UTC)[voice]
Date: 2008-11-23 06:31 am (UTC)Elle- you really don't have control, do you?
[voice] :< sorry gabriel.....conflicted elle is conflicted...
Date: 2008-11-23 06:33 am (UTC)[ And she terminates the network connection by lol destroying it by accident.... out of control... indeed. ]
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Date: 2008-11-23 06:42 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-11-23 06:47 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-11-23 06:52 am (UTC)You didn't answer my question, Gabriel ♥ Or would you like me to tell you something about myself first?
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Date: 2008-11-23 07:44 am (UTC)And no need. I think some people are just better at helping than others.
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Date: 2008-11-23 07:46 am (UTC)That's true. Some will kill you, and some will just let you do the work on your own. Maybe give you the tools to do it with.
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Date: 2008-11-23 07:51 am (UTC)I damned myself long ago, if that's what you're getting at. Didn't even need the push from everyone else.
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Date: 2008-11-23 07:56 am (UTC)Now you're being silly.
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Date: 2008-11-23 09:15 am (UTC)Aw, come on. I've been pouring my heart out here.
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Date: 2008-11-23 09:26 am (UTC)If it wasn't your choice, it wasn't your fault. Not that I think 'fault' is the right way to describe it, but somehow I don't think you'd agree.
And everyone else wasn't pushing, they were throwing you off the edge.
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Date: 2008-11-23 09:05 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-11-23 09:31 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-11-23 11:42 pm (UTC)Not directly, anyway.[ooc: Strike deleted.]
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Date: 2008-11-24 12:06 am (UTC)